I’m still confusing when ‘it’ would be over…I’m still in great illness, triggering a hard feeling and a lot of disappointment…and chaos too. It became difficult and more difficult as the time went by. How could I cope with these? I was wondering when it would be over, no more agony and sadness approaching me. But sometimes we cannot dispute the fact that those entire things are naturally parts of our life, definitely we can’t behave against the rules of life. My brain capacity should be sufficient for now, no more inputs to be filled up, my neurons have optimally been digesting many things since I was on the earth. And I could feel, I could feel that I became weaker and weaker, lacking the older boundless power, and weak and weak than… “ya Allah…”