That’s PPOU… members of the House…
They were all having fun with the kayaks…
I could see…
The boys…
Laughing towards the girls..
And
The girls…
They gave a feedback…
Although it was quite soft and gentle…
At least some things penetrated my ears…
It was very very pleasant to my two ears…
Laughing about myself, it was a real joke…
to say a friend(very confidential to reveal his name) when he shouted,
there would be a big hole that the tasek would automatically be waterless… so that the four of us could take back the floating bottles and the rectangular rocks attached to the bottles itself under the sea level…
Hahahahha… what’s a true joke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahaha…

It happened again and again…
Still could not catch up

and

have deep understanding of the morning lecture…
I was so dumbfounded!!!!
All have been very understandable…
Of what the topics were all about…
The expressions…
They distributed successfully…
but me…

nooooottthing.

“You are irresponsible!!!” That was what I wanted to hear from you all…

thinking and thinking then...

and thinking some more...

i hope the 'confusion' would reach its end...

although i felt...

it would never be...

ya Allah...

trembling

In the ‘dReAmiNg’ world, I spent about two days…
It was very sweet!!! Desperately sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!
The movie
But there was one thing about me which I could not avoid…
It was very bad… extremely bad towards my life-to-be… and people around.
I’m afraid…
if the ‘thing’ would never come to an end…
Diriku dicipta lain daripada yang lain…
No one would notice that…
Sometimes, the ‘thing’ dismayed me that I felt regret towards my existence in this world…
I know it is a big sin to mention that… very big one!!!
Sometimes, i felt it was very unfair!!!!!!!… because of that ‘thing’, I suffered…
No one knows about the ‘thing’ I have been doing…
Sometimes, my heart started asking me: when is the end??? How much time I should wait for the ‘hikmah’ to come??? Two years??? Fifteen years???
Or..
Or it would never end…
Hoping for someone to change me…
in my prayer, selalu kupohon kewujudan seseorang yang akan memimpin diriku ke jalan yang benar lagi lurus…
and to vanish that bad ‘thing’
entirely…
entirely!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was all my fault to have started the ‘thing’…
has been seven years...
it has been my responsibility
to get clear of it…
to change my perceptions towards all men and women
ladies and gentlemen
boys and girls

seven years is the long time...
sometimes
I felt
I would never make it
one story to remember…
‘100 days with Mr. Arrogant’... I had a chance to watch it… it was yesterday.
Posting me a deep message, I was really touching of what happened in the movie
when it was proceeding its ways.

Alangkah baiknya sekiranya diriku normal seperti manusia lain… Mr. Arrogant was the one…
I admire.
I know
Everyone knows
it is just a story…

But for me…
the story brings true life.

LeT's hAvE a TiMe iN iT!...............

never in my life, i felt nothing while riding bus..........
it was so empty..........

i need some time to rest...!!!
finally..........................it comes.....!!!!!!!!!!

the most hatred thing... when people having less self-confidence dealing with his life...

This morning I dropped by a place…
Where I could see some familiar faces…
Miqdad… Al-hafizuddin… Izzat… amin… firdaus… aisya… jazlina…others.
A place which consisted of a lot of memories…
I faced very sweet memorial marks…
The stage…
Where Ranniey and friends came out with jokes and a lot of laughs…
Where Miqdad, my lovely brother, delivered his great speech… during the great dinner
Feeling very very very very very very very proud of him, I had to…
I had to leave him…
… August 4, 2008 to August 8, 2008… The Residence Hotel
A place to never forget…
A memory to be placed in my deep heart…
A place to remember!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
: (

things to remember... i cannot f...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

staring onto the sky... miss you all kids....!!!!

no more

I’m back in the ‘lonely’ world… no more kids to play jokes with… no more cheerful faces… they were all going back to their respective homes… it was a very2 sad ending.
Today was the day… : (
Miqdal... al-haffizuddin... amin... izzat... others. really really really really really really miss you all guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

do not want to give up...

afraid... :(