...iT wAs CrYiNg...

Something unexpected happened at my hometown, Kuala Terengganu…a tree commonly called “pokok pait” by the locals has been dropping ‘tears’ that the locals said the tree has been crying…

The tree is in the Masjid Bukit Besar Islamic Graveyard area, approximately 5 kilometers away from my village and has been “dropping tears” since five days ago. Saturday was the beginning.

As I drove one of my peers to his home which is very very closed to the graveyard where the tree stood, he said that the water “terpancut-pancut” came out from the trunk of the tree the first day of the occurance.

It was extremely hard to believe at the first second I heard the news. I thought he was just kidding me but his face expression told me everything that the story was very true and I started to believe then.

My heart kept on telling… “There was something wrong about the tree”… “It was crying!!!”… Something wrong out there… I did not know what to say about the phenomenon… It was really really weird, right?

There is something special about the tree however…
Many locals were trying to fill their empty drinking water bottles up and tasting the water which they believed to be rich with nutrients. Formerly they made use of its leaves as medicine, as according to them, they comprise of a lot of nutrients for maintaining our health in one aspect…nevertheless, no proof has been met…

as you wish my great queen...let's battle!!!!!

Every American Top Universities (ATU) had stepped away from UNITEN…
With no exception of FELDA scholars…
The apartment was getting gloomy and somber and creepy from the time being…
…really really miss you all guys…Sahrul...Azan…Amar…Amri…Hazrool…Hairul…Rais…ect.

unforgettable moment... a second to remember... :(

Long I had a talk with a peer last night… a peer who preferred to be called Azan…
One thing that I did not expect from it…you know what???...

We communicated in English!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! at last… eventhough it was kind of broken English… or better to say ‘bahasa rojak’… but we are trying…
But I think it was too late for me to boost my proficiency in English Language…
I really really hope more time we spent to get used in such language…but…
It has been very very late already…
And I should know that…
The time is just around the corner…
And he, namely Azan…would be out tomorrow…
And we won’t probably meet again…
We should know that…
In the name of Allah…the Most Caring and the Most Merciful, I really really hope the chance would come… aminn.

Last night, he told his experience while sitting for his TOFL in the previous moment… and introduced me how the TOFL ran…

Last night, he came out with a word that he really really loved a person… a woman to remember and be hold in his heart…

I’m very very sure everyone knows that… she has been very very strong all this while and I really really respect her… Azan, a word from me. “jage cg aku baek2”… amanat nie!!! And for cg… “jage Azan baek2”…

Last night, he told me a story… a horrible story of his when he was at his secondary school, Sek. Men. Sultan Ahmad Shah if I am not mistaken… I won’t further the story…as it was really really bad…

Last night, he came out with his plans with regard of his ‘life to be’… a great plans towards his ‘wife to be’… and too regarding on his field of work that he would retire from being a maritime engineer to be a teacher…a special education teacher when the time comes…

Last night, there was something that made me think…overwhelmed me.
To be true, I did not actually sleep that particular night owing to a “thought” about the teachers who have been very very ‘kesian’ that the students has been making them ‘crazy’ and thus the teachers are always in pool of troubles and sadness…. expressed by him…

Last night, I was very very sad that I could not even close my eyes to have a five-hour rest… it was really really a bad story!!!... … even sadder than before…
a great challenge for all ‘teachers to be’…

Last night I hope to last forever and the talk to be endless, he stopped from coming out with words… no more natural wave of his voice penetrated my two ears… nothing I could hear… nothing at all…

a teacher must know how to cope with that situation…or even worse than that…
a teacher must be strong in all cases and troubles he or she would be facing…
a teacher must not be underestimated by students… or otherwise.
a teacher must create a new generation…a generation where the students know what is the ‘adab berguru’ exactly means…
a teacher must exist!!!…


a teacher must always be a teacher…….
To teach and learn…
To speak and confirm…
To be missed and loved…and
To tease and rememberrrr!!…

It was all about a ‘thought’... a thought… and a thought…
A ‘thought’ by him to be hold in my heart…….. and destroyed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A thought to remember ever and ever…….
…my great friend…

There has been a voice that was dire awesome…
a voice that was to be very pleasant to my ears ever…
a voice I used to when getting sad and miserable…
a voice to tremble one’s heart…

and it is becoming a gift…

my gift for you…(you tube: hamed shakernejad (part 2))… kind of ‘bayati song’…
really hope for you to figure it out by yourself and listen… the only gift I can distribute…
…my great friend…

The Last Second...last update...

…this month and the upcoming two months which are very near I have been calling “the last second”…
Only this short period of time I shall be meeting those who are going abroad this July and August…
And for that... I really appreciate the remaining seconds we get together…we talk and whisper…haha…

I meant we tease each other…normal thing, right!!! Especially during “this last second”…
It has been very very true that a friend is awfully important in our life… I got that!!!
And that was what I called ‘great friends’, who gave me ‘life’ to live in UNITEN…
Especially him… a person to never be forgotten…

Last day, I ‘overheard’ in some writing within someone’s blog…he had pronounced that the American Top Universities, a short form for ATU had finished its way…but I don’t think so…
I strongly disagree with that statement during the press conference that he pronounced…
extremely disagree with that…

The most hatred thing I ever had when someone comes out with the word ‘finished’ as well as ‘ended’…
No!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I would not accept that…
As long as a person used to be with the ATU group, it would be last forever and the programme would never end…never!!!
It raised myself again…to a great anger…
Nobody could say that… nobody!!!
And with this, I demand to come to a new press conference, my great friend…
I demand……
I demand……
I demand…… (become weaker)
I…
i…dema…deman….demanddd…(in pools of tears)
I afr…afra…afraid…
Owh my God….my ‘empire’!!!
My greatest wall!!!... It cracks some more…
My citizens!!!!!! Be prepared for a great battle our history has ever had!!!

(flashback)
I’m so afraid…
I’m afraid of “the last second”…something that has been ‘hurting’ me all this while…
And everything with the word ‘last’…I scared…
I felt…
Nothing… happy sometime…but
“Am I happy??? What is it for???” My second ‘me’ kept on asking me…

Every ATU student spoke fluent English while me…I’m nothing…
I’m too slow…
Owing to my slowness, they started to begin the conversation in our first language…
In that case, it was no doubt that I was the problem…
My speed of pronouncing a word was very very slow…
In fact, I’m lacking of ideas…
I have a lot of difficulties to combine ideas to come out with words…
It was dire hurtful…
And that was what I’m worrying about…

9 more days…

Roughly it finished…it was very very tough…somehow…

n I…

I would be missing the greatest people I ever saw…AP Dr. Abu Bakar…AP Dr. Nasri…and all FELDA scholars…Mr. Sahrul…Mr. Fizuan…Mr. Hairul… and other (Mr)s who are going to fly this year…

All has been so great to me…

There is a song for one……by Avril Lavigne…hope ‘you’ enjoy it yourself…

An advice to tease and remember for ‘you’:

…always remember Allah, the Almighty…
…always keep on your hard works...till the end of the day…
…always tell the good news to your family especially to your Mom…
…and always seeking Allah’s help when you are in troubles…

And with this…
I pronounce the long term warfare…
has ended…for the moment...

Let it be a lesson for one and for all…

Today was quite bad…
That was what I felt five minutes before the invigilator started to collect the papers…
And the feeling has been so true and coincident with what I thought last night…
I had no idea right now…
But anyway…
“daging masak merah” fried rice is very delicious!!!
The taste is really really great!!! You should try on your own…

12 days more left…

I could feel some hits towards my body…it was dire hurtful…
Thus, I spent more time laying on the sofa and bed too…
I was very very tired today…
IELTS has beed the utmost thing of my list up-to-now…
And of course the tomorrow and the next day’s tests…
I had no idea about what questions would apparently come out…
But as MR Abu Bakar said… “the things are there(Calculus text book) already…
all you have to do is to just try out the exercises the text book carries”…
“it is all just about you whether you want to make things happen or not”(new version of translation) …I remember that…

Hurmm…somehow..today…
I just want to say…
Good luck for the upcoming Physics and Calculus tests!!!…
I wish you…all the best!!! See ya!!!

The question!!!...it was a very very good…the best of all I think…
but Azizul knew better than I did… but anyway, just leave it behind…
just focus on IELTS…
I got oranges today!!!!!!yay!!!...at last…after a month time…
the ten oranges were bought by a friend…Sahrul was the call…
thanks sahr!!!!...a gift to deeply appreciate...…
those were what my tongue has been missing for…huh
their taste!!!! What a very….
But…not the sour one…haha
The more the level of sour…the more nutrients they carry in…
That what’s I believed in... what do you feel about it???
But anyway, I hate the sour thing…
You might want to make some research on that…
Okay…happy surfing!!!

14 days more left…

Coming back from up10, the most popular food court in the world…haha…
But…
Our IELTS is coming!!!...it would be the utmost dangerous part while being in UNITEN apparently…
But anyway, thanks a lot Azizul!!! The question you distributed during the IDP session this morning make me deeply think and think some more for better life as an upcoming university student …thanks again!!!

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I did not know what is going to me…sometimes…like this…sometimes…like that…and sometimes…empty.
I do not know…
Who am I ???
A question mark there…
I come back after long days rest…but it was not a good rest…
I was not actually resting for common physical tiredness I encountered apparently…but…
But…I rested owing to the very very unbeneficial thought and work during the whole days I faced…
Instead of doing some Calculus exercises at each end of each subtopic, the thought is still playing around my head and mind.

Overall, it disturbed me a lot…posing to difficulties in focusing the subjects during the lecture time…it was very very annoying!!!