I feel sick and sick then. It was very painful…very painful. I feel I could not stand anymore. I cannot… it was a very long time I did not put my word in blog. Is it on purpose? I do not know what to say here. Many things crossed in my minds from the time being, things that upset me a lot. Within the sadness, somehow, the happiness would come even once in a month. But there are things that were really annoying and unaccepted. Why must I think about others and their future life? Why must I take care of each person in this world? Is it because of I am going to be a teacher in which I have to show my concern to all my students in school? Is it what we call a good teacher? Or is it because they had been my best friends? Long I stood…