Convocation is just around the corner. Not knowing I am going or not going, my head puzzled. One thing to remember… no matter what professions do we take and no matter how big we are in an organization, do not do last minute work as shown by one of the faculties here. It might tarnish your image and your company’s as well. As we work later on, be as professional as we can. I need formality!!!!!!!!!!!!…we need formality!!!!!!!!!!!...not just teach and in a sudden, mid-term test we have to sit for without formal note. What the hell is it!!!!!!!!!!!
That was not a good example to view… really really bad to uphold. Please friends…

nothing much i could do...

I went home… because life is uncertain there… uncertainty came into my life long moon ago… not because I did not want to see friends again…
I do really want… you have been my best friends… no doubt about that. I am afraid of the woes at UNITEN… with the faculty management… there is not certainty… no at all…

I went back because I felt… I felt it was all not coincident… the uncertainty faced by me, my poor self,… the uncertainty happening within the faculty as I entered the university a year ago… not anymore coincident…

Anywhere I went, uncertainty would reign… no one can dispute that fact…

I went home because I did want to distribute problems to all of you… I went home because I felt I must…

I went home because I knew you all suffer. I could not even open my two eyes to have a look at your hardworking days… long I knew…

I went home because I did want to meet any kind of uncertainty again because it has been making me sad and sad as seconds passed.

I went home because I felt it was a must… a must to be fulfilled… long I stood… it was all uncertain.

I fall between the two tools… it was all uncertain… I fall between Monash and Auckland…
I fall between in and out of country to pursue…

I fall between going home and staying at UNITEN…

I fall between making medical check-up right now and later…

I fall the utmost between jahil rulers and more knowledgeable group of people… who should I go with???????????????who??????????

all I have printed in my note book. Each woe I wrote… because nothing much I could do to myself… writing was all I can… it was all written on my book… how much you all suffer from me and my own suffer…

no one could tell. I went home as it was a must… for better life of others… and that I should pronounce myself… “Very poor on me”… it was not coincident at all… not at all

This morning, SELSET had reminded us many things of preparing ourselves(those who are pursuing their studies in New Zealand) and a lot of lot of things she did mention in the session. Passport, visa and medical check-up making are among those utmost essential things to be settled in this short period of time. And also regarding on the accommodation application of the desired university of our choice. this morning posed, i would say, kind of chaos among us that we need to settled things up (at least passport and medical check-up making) within a month. That's long enough i think.

Towards completion… that was a nice phrase. I like it. I got from Najwa. Thanks a lot!

the time has been flowing very fast. two more weeks still left.............. and then we disperse...
a time flow to be remember!.....

I know nothing about the future...
Long I am standing and gazing and thinking… thinking of what I am going to face… thinking of when I am going to be back to my hometown for the last time… I think and think some more… and think some more, trying to seek for something I never went and got through…
Sadness has been appearing… and appearing with a non-stop mode… it keeps going and going. I have spoken sometimes but yet again I have been silence for quite a long time, I remembered because I have been keeping too much memory. They are all in my mind…