it has been toooooo long I never hang out with old friends,… 35 of us… we gathered back as a group-family so called… nothing changed actually…. All are with their old styles and ways… like usual… its common thing! no strangeness at all,,,just a bit(if any)..but I did not acknowledge that…

With what happened yesterday, a bit surprise to me…. A great surprise indeed that I have not been expecting it at all…the Phillip Island!!!!!!… good job, peers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... but, one thing for sure, it embrassed me a lot in some ways… one truly friend said “bukan senang nak jumper kt cni, this’s the time…. so use it as much as you can…”… and that’s true!!!!!!!!!!!!!...he’s(and all) are true friends… they are all appreciating the presence of New Zealand comers…
We went to an Island!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What!!!!!!!!!!!????????? I did not expect that….!!!!!!huhuhuhu.and that embrassed me a lot. My heart whispered…klu aku tahu, diorg akan bwk g jalan2 jauh2, I will definitely not be transiting in Melbourne in 5 days..huhuhuhuhuhu… in fact, if I knew quite earlier, my flight to Melbourne won’t be 19th…….hhhhuuuuuuuuuuu. some say(in fact all),”so, what are friends for?kalu bukan untuk menolong antara satu sama lain” huhuuuuu …………. And once again, it embrassed me…bcoz diriku masih tidak mengerti the word “friendship”!!!!!!!... what’s is it meant,guys? just examining all of your behaviours(in fact,I had been examining for quite a long time as we were in UNITEN), you’ve all got what’s the meaning of it…… unfortunately, I have not been in that group until today(I felt)… unluckily, I am still finding….. a search that would never comes to an end I supposed…

Maybe that was one reason which drove me to travel… but… perjalanan hati x sama dgn perjalanan physical( merentasi sempadan antara negeri)… It never solved “that”… but I tried to make it having no different between them… trying and trying…like a ‘crazy’ dude…

the truth...

I’ve reached Melbourne yesterday… Alhamdulillah… meeting some old friends… having talk to them were the most happinest thing in my life I supposed… but not too much… but at least we talk and keep recalling some old experience in the old institution we’ve attended… it is quite nice… very nice indeed. Once we had a lunch at one Indian restaurant. However, I expect nothing happened and changed, but as we resumed our talk and chatting, everything did have. But I did not understand why there must exist a “disagreement” in one case which is supposed not to be… you all should not condemn her,if any,… you should not say bad things on her(or them) and you should not say that she has “buang tabiat”… you should not say she is doing wrong things because we are not used to “it” to be like what she has been doing… you should not say she has been “sesat” just because she acted quite differently(not like before)…
ACTUALLY, you “all” are not been shown by Allah the truth and has not been chosen(at the moment) as the one who gets the hidayah Allah… but she(or them) is the true one… she just followed what Prophet Muhammad SAW and Ulama’ told and “berpesan-pesan” regarding the ”issue”… I think she once went to Sek. Men. Keb. Agama…or…Sek.Men. Agama that she knew what she formerly did was obviously wrong and she kept doing the wrongdoings which were against the Allah and Rasul’ telling without realizing what she was doing was right or wrong at the time,…….that is she might just ignore…. Or maybe she took the “issue” so so so so easily without realizing it is a sin(though small)… Or…. She might not attend any religious schools and she just knew it from Usrah held weekly(or monthly). Nevertheless, I admired her so much with her acts and from stories I ‘ve heard,……., we often think that such a “buang tabiat” thing pictured the bad things happened(or would be happening)…. But one thing for sure, she is not like an “inactive” girl at all…. She did active somehow,…
once you’ve shown by Allah the right path, there would be nothing you should be worrying about….. as Allah has been knowing… He knew what best suit you and this is it…. Just keep on doing good behaviors… manners which are not contradicting the Rasuls’telling….. At least kamu sudah Berjaya mengurangkan dosa-dosa(though small), better than those yang masih tidak menyedari yg mana satu betol and yg mane satu salah… and for you, just be patient and perseverant. INNALLAHAMA’SSOBIRIN…Wallahua’lam

recall... frenz.

sometimes, i remembered.... i remembered how bad i was while being in UNITEN especially,,, maybe that time was my first time trying to adopt with "external" citizen of outer "world".... and so, Allah wanted me to learn something. and "expand myself contribute to the nations... and thats why i has been "written" to be a teacher whose job is to speak and contribute... alhamdullilah... Allah's plans would never cruel towards His creations unless they are trying to ruin themselves in some ways...

sometimes, i remembered Sahrul, someone who has the greatest spirit of leadership and confidence. don't we want that???.... sometimes, when i recalled, i remembered how "nothing" i was before.... compared to others all around me.... sometimes, as the exams comes to an end, i used to listen and observe and examine how could... how could the song Pieces be so rude to me? sometimes, i fell because of it... i have been waiting.... waiting for something i dont really know,,,never know... waAllahua'lam...