I hope for something to be almost perfect… but it won’t be…
I hope for a thing to be more flexible… but it did not…
Instead, it worsened!

Everything to be change, but nothing I could change…
Every single matter to be sorted, but life never approved…
Every woe had a coming stop, but mine almost none…
It may not be…

The next three years I would be in New Zealand…
Sent by Allah… God Willing…
Hoping for something to change…
A little change I would be very thankful…

I felt quite tired playing around all these things… but it never changes.
So, what for?...
Are all these trying to make a mockery of me?

But,
Alhamdulillah…
I’m alive…
Up to now.

It was nothing to throw the books at everyone even though I felt like everybody was trying to make a mockery of the project… even though I felt it was not coincident!... a pigment of truth has yet been met…

“Dead in the water”. I got that fright of my life since I knew more about myself. I must keep my end up, struggling for honour I aimed!

NTCY08

I have gone through the Kenegaraan course organized by Biro Tatanegara of Prime Minister Department. It was the National Teachers Conference Year 2008(NTCY08)…

Biro Tatanegara Programme is waiting for me to come… The location is just the same as the first BTN I attended last year in the month of July… and for sure the facilitators will also be the same. However, I get a fright of my life when talking about such programme! It is not kind of hatred feeling, I enjoyed myself in the last BTN but there were parts that I felt very scared of somehow. And that occurred when LDK and kind of provocation(it’s not provocation actually) took place… but this coming second BTN will be more challenging and unpleasant. The ways for sure will completely change. Everything has changed…