pengunduran

Hari ini aku berundur dari bumi Auckland, sememangnya telah kalah perjuanganku di sini hingga saat aku menulis utusan kali ini. "Wahai tentera-tenteraku, pulanglah kalian semua ke bumi asalmu. Semoga kalian mendapat hidayah serta petunjuk daripada Allah, Tuhan yang satu."Hatiku telah menjadi lemah, maka tidak hairanlah runtuh semua benteng ciptaanku" Moga kudapat kemenangan yg nyata lagi kekal di sisi mu ya Robbi. " Retreat, my soldiers for Allah!... "

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have been sad for days... Ya Allah.... sunyinya aku without my little brother and sister, I dont know what to do without them at my side... only He knows, the last time I saw him, when I sent him to his primary school, I saw him sad, really sad, I dont know where the sad comes from,either from my sister tease(bcoz she sat near him in the car) or from my leaving to NZ. Ya Allah, I feel like more to the second one. "Ya Allah, help him and all the others, so that they get to Jannah easily and protect them from being sad and give them strength to strike all 'karenah dunia'"...Ya Allah...

new

i am starting my new university life, wondering how is it going to be...

JaLaN...

ak merasakan waktunya telah pn tiba...untukku jalanku... untukmu jalanmu... Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Kuasa, mula saat ini dengan kalimahmu ku ucap, kuharap azamku untuk mneruskan kehidupan ini sebaik-baiknya tidak terpadam... tidaklah pula jatuh ke lembah kerugian... "my world is different from others" maka ujiannya juga sudah pasti berbeza. Namaku Hamdi bin Adam sementara namamu Zulhilmi(Joe), Shafiq, Darimi, Assroul,... maka sudah pasti maksudnya tidak sama... Tempat lahirku di Kuala Terengganu, smentara tempat lahirmu Johor Bahru, Kota Bharu, Shah Alam, London, Michigan, Virginia... maka sudah pasti kebudayaan masyarakatmu berbeza denganku.... Diameter bola plastisinku lebih kurang 4 centimeter manakala diameter bumi about 6000 km.. sudah pasti itu satu perbezaan yang jelas lagi terang dan nyata... ku ucap Ya Rahman..Ya rahim.. Ya Qoyyum.. Ya Hayyu... Ya Aziz... Ya Ghofur... tetapi semua nama2 itu kembali kepada Allah, Tuhan yang Satu, Maha Esa lagi Maha Kuasa... sELaMaT bErjaYa ku ucapkan kepAda rakan2 sperjuangan sMua dalam menempuh kehidupan di dunia ini!!!

perihal Dunia....& Alam Ghaib

Perihal dunia…

Dunia o dunia… byk sungguh penipuan di dalamnya… tidakkah seseorang itu sedar?… Aku ada byk criter daripada golongan tua-tua… one story makes me think for the time being… Somehow, I don’t know whether I supposed to put myself into thinking about it all the time... This is about a dream from an almost-70 years old man … perhaps a religious person… Once, or maybe not…. Maybe so many times he dreamt about “it”… I don’t know… But should anyone ambil manfaat from it…

Tingginya martabat org berilmu agama[Islam] DAN yg mengamalkannya … I think you guys already got what I am going to tell… … “At one place on one time[Sesungguhnya ALLAH itu Maha Mengetahui tempat dan masanya], that old man stands at a highest position, seeing no one higher than him, and he could see “everyone” because as he said, he is at the highest… and “makhluk” Allah di sekelilingnya mula tunduk dengan tiba2… This surprised him very very much menyebabkan dia berasa hairan. As days passed, with Allah’s permission, he unpurposely went to see one of his old friends, also a religious guy, and started to tell him his story about the dream. Fortunately, that old friend of his also dreamt the same, being at the highest position and setiap makhluk surrounding him juga mula tunduk kepadanya in the dream… Ya Allah, Maha Besar kurnianMu… aku duduk… termenung

a real home...

Yesterday and the last two days, there were everyone... everywhere... being buzy preparing themselves for the last paper... MATHS 340... In the last two days, there were discussions everywhere in the night, Kate Edger was the focus... Almost every folk headed to there... Until yesterday, my first friend checked out from here, a home for the year. Another one left at 2.00am. I am afraid I have not been a good folk to them. Perhaps, two(maybe more) left Auckland today. Again, this home has been empty... Again people are moving in and out with one leaves after another... keeping asking myself.... where is the real home......... a home not comparable to any other home... a home that lasts forever.... a home boring us no more... That is Jannah.

ak bukan di kalangan mereka

Aku ada kwn2 yg pndai sgt physics... diorang cerdas dlm physics ni... Alhamdulillah dpt kwn ngn diorg... tp hari ni hati ak sedih... diorg ade motivation and halatuju , sgt2 curious and bersemangat psl phys. Thats why la diorg amik phys kn! Ak ade sebuah buku physics...buku text... yg hampir 1 sem di tanganku... tp ak spatutnyer kasi kpd org yg btol2 keen about physics untuk dibaca dan ditelaah... buku itu bukan untuk diriku,... ak sedih... kerana buku itu gagal menjadi salah satu buku ku... ak sedih... pabila buku ku dibaca oleh kwnku yg sgt cerdas about physics and memiliki tahap understanding English yg excellent sekaligus memahami isi kandungannya pada masa dibaca... Alhamdulilah, ade jugak org yg memahami isinya...apa pun, ak bukan dikalangan mereka

me failing to understand...

After all, ku masih tidak mengerti maksud " cara mengajak insan ke arah kebaikan " di negeri orang. Tapi to be honest, sebahagian kata2 ku di blog ini kupetik daripada tazkirah ustaz yg setanah senegeri sebahasa tempat kelahiranku. Mungkin tidak sesuai diguna pakai di luar negeriku. Anggaplah post itu ku sediakan untuk dibaca oleh kawan2ku di Terengganu. tapi ku harap, mesej ni sampai kepada mana2 sahaja kawanku : berbuat amalan soleh lebih baik daripada berbuat perkara sia-sia dan berbuat perkara sia-sia lebih baik daripada berbuat dosa, mudah-mudahan kita tidak tergolong dlm golongan yg ketiga itu... kupohon seribu kemaafan ke atas segala kata2 keras ku di blog sementara berada di dalam bulan Syawal yg mulia ini... dan semoga smua kawan2ku disamping keluarga sihat wal-afiat hendaknya di mana sahaja kamu berada. Yg lemah itu datang dari dlm diriku dan yg baik itu daripada Allah, Tuhan Yang Satu. Wallahua'lam.

Sekian.

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I am now in the Holy month ... the month of Ramadhan.

more battle

semalam... hari paling riang dan ceria buat aku... my Best friend ever came to see me at home... Ya Allah, it was really a nice talk... cerita psl kwn2 lama... psl diri sndiri... it was a very long conversation... the presence of him made me not feel lonely anymore... mungkin krn kami byk bercerita, dan cerita dia brjaya merancakkan lg perbualan... sampai ak terasa laen bila die mula beredar dari rmhku... Waktu itu sudah Maghrib... I knew him only for two years... ,,, but dia telah brjaya menawan some part of my heart... Ya Allah... aku berasa seronok yg teramat sgt bila dye bercerita... dan aku mnyampuk... and more and more old and current stories came out from his mouth... tp sebaik shj dye beredar, aku dpt merasakan kesunyian sekali lagi bermula... Ya Allah... aku adalah seorang yg pendiam... tapi, berbual bersamanya, berjaya mngubah sikapku(walaupun 1 jam) daripada pendiam mnjadi ceria...

a battle that will never end...

just now was awesome... It has been one and half year I did not meet him face-to-face... and today I did meet him. He has been a GREAT competer of mine over many moons ago... my GREAT peer... Defeating him was so frustrated after all... tapi akhirnya kalah jugak aku after so many efforts I put... Allahuakbar... BUT but... I'm back, my Great friend... I'm back!!....prepare yourself!!! But I did love him, praying to Allah to give him strength whenever he failed in the battlefield... I found a true persaudaraan in Islam... isn't it beautiful, my dear readers?

That was the most beautiful...

being at Gold Coast, Australia is not my intention at all... but at last, Allah sent me there... What a beautiful scene while over the land there... That's Allah creation.

fear

Today is already 4th June... I am afraid to come back to New Zealand though most people like them. My place is here. Returning to there has been fearing me alot... I remember the late Miss Eliza, a lecturer I admired the most when I was in UNITEN. Because of her, I kept on blogging in English.... perhaps she was the first person bringing awareness to me regarding how easy to master English especially in speaking if you kept practising and speaking in that language. Once she commented on my posted coretan... English cannot be mastered within days... may take years but for sure, not 7 or 30 days... Those words always played around my ears perhaps until now. Semoga Allah merahmati roh Miss Eliza.

hearing Azan... reminding me of my hometown, here I was born

My Public Photos

My Public Photos

something

this week and next week are holidays. it was easter breaks. Everyone is gone... would be gone in the next hours... others in the next few days while i am not... it was just the matter of suitability of the time... easter breaks i supposed is not a good time to choose to travel South. Well, one would disagree that. but with lab reports accumulate and tests are just after the break, i should consider to spend more time finishing those, not to travel!... nonetheless, i agree to someone saying that "bila lagi nk travel while you r in overseas... bukan senang taw!" i supposed they are all right... very right! but then, as many tazkirah n ceramah i listened all this while, i became aware that i got something not actually allowing me to go travelling anymore. i supposed i have become "jahil" while in Malaysia about the personal "problem" i actually experience since 6 years ago, the problem which i have been thinking "xper, sah nyer solat aku kalu .....,". BUT then, i realized it is not true anymore. many things i previously thought it was alright but then, it become otherwise as i did learn from tazkirah. especially regarding my "solat" and ibadah... hopefully, every muslim n muslimah would be becoming aware that there has been lots and lots of things they never knew about "Islamic laws" etc, perhaps you are all should be familiar with all kind of Islamic talks and tazkirah, so you do not lose in the dark of wilderness. although you know everything about it, make sure you are not forgetting on what you have already known. Wallahua'lam